Orgasmic music is much much better than pills.

Secara spesifiknya aku tak tahu apa yang bikin aku sakit, tapi aku sedang sakit.
Benda paling remeh pun boleh buat aku nangis sekarang ni.
Dasar cengeng. 


(Fuck the Universe.
Pasang earphones.
Tekan butang play.
Volume up kasi habis.
Tenggelam dalam lagu.
Painkillers yg terbaik.)

Fuck lah.
Satu lagi, aku rasa aku banyak sangat mencarut.
Banyak sangat lepas laku.
Banyak sangat perangai tak senonoh.
Mesti Tuhan tak suka.
Haih. Mana mungkin Dia suka!
Kau rasa kenapa lagi Dia selalu cari cara untuk buat aku ingat Dia?

The cyclone.

(There's a thunder about to rumble somewhere inside.
I'm sensing different kind of vibes now.
Oh I can already taste its metallic bite.
It's near.
It's so fuckin near.
I can smell it.
It's near.
Oh fuck!
It's here.)

Intrigued.

The fact that he always, always distances himself from others ;
that is something, I find, really intriguing.
Disturbingly provocative.


P/S: Kelmarin dia bikin aku penasaran.
       Separuh tolol -- dek mimik itu.
       Sialan.
      

I bet you can tell my dispositions by now, eh?

Kusut ; tapi tak empty.
Demi Tuhan, sekarang ini I'm feeling content.
Pegi jahanam sama age gap. Kau distraksi paling perfect.
Dan yang penting aku pasti jiwa kau dan aku berumah di satu bumbung yg sama ; arts.
Kau boleh bikin hati aku rasa warm, juga bikin roma aku berdiri dek goosebumps.
Tapi problem nya cuma satu ;
I am getting too comfortable being right here -- with you.
Comfortable enough untuk let my guards down.
(Great, Anith. Just great!)
Macam lah tak cukup-cukup lagi reasons of heartaches kan?
(Bodoh)

How Saturday(s) should be like.

Macam semalam.
Macam semalam, fooling around bilamana sepatutnya serius.
Macam semalam, singing out loud to the 90's boybands.
Macam semalam, bila kita semua dinner sama-sama.
Macam semalam, bila kau tak henti-henti bikin jokes.
Macam semalam, aku boleh gelak kangkang tak payah nak cover.
Macam semalam, kau bikin aku tidur dengan satu perasaan yg best.
Macam semalam lah.
A perfect Saturday is what semalam is.