March 13, 2010

Did You?

Did you notice my fears?



p/s: Feeling a bit lost lately. I know its not the end of the world and I really shouldn't make a big deal out of it. I know things will be okay and I know I will be okay. I have to be okay. But hey,try putting yourself in my shoes for a moment, you'll know what it feels like. You know, its time like this that sometimes strangers are far more comforting than loved ones. Hm, I guess I am hitting rock bottom, alone.

March 11, 2010

Right In The Middle.


Couldn't help it. I really am sick of you.

March 8, 2010

Lady Luck must've despised me.

...

The way you're looking in your sleep,
The way you're looking when you leap,
The strange illusions that you keep,
You don't know that I'm noticing.


NORAH SILVERBERG; NICK & NORAH'S INFINITE PLAYLIST.


March 5, 2010

Love Is--

-- A Big Black Hole.



March 4, 2010

Lala Land Much.

I DON'T HAVE A LIFE.
Everyday I'll wake up at 10am to the screaming of AG,
grumble,check my hp and find my way out of the room,
grab my towel,kiss AG on the cheek,
(or at least tried to,because he would scream whenever I get near him),
take a bath, put on some clean clothes, eat breakfast,
watch series of Hindustan, You-Tubing, blog-hopping,
have my lunch, fighting over a remote control,
more Hindustan and more You-Tubing,texting,
Tya gets back from school, fight over the lappie,
StarWorld Marathon, texting, have my dinner,
tuck AG to bed with the same bedtime stories,
watch the same videos of friends in hp,
late night You-Tubing, texting, and at the end of the day force myself to sleep.
See, I do not have a life.
And I need one pronto.

March 3, 2010

Beware: Whine Alert.

There's several things bothering me at the moment. Like,my summons that I haven't paid and I have to pay it before 14th of March,or else my I wont be able to access my results. In order to pay the stupid summons,I need money. Damn.

And oh, I haven't had proper sleep for 5 nights in a row now. It's really disturbing because I'm sick. I've running nose which won't stop running no matter how hard I yelled at it. And I think I've brain tumor too. I'm no med expert but ur head can't ache this much unless u have a tumor or something like that,right?

My mom just won't stop nagging and she nags over ridiculous things ever. I don't mean to be rude but I find it rather annoying at times. I love you with all my heart, Ibu but all these ridiculous nagging's gotta stop.

Little AG? Oh he loves to make my life as hellish as possible. He screams whenever I touches the damn remote,he screams even more every time I refuse to imitate his favorite cartoons.He must have his fave channel on 24/7 (even when he's sleeping) or he'll run amok around the house and starts throwing things at people. btw,he's only 3. Oh and the best part is, he thinks he's a superhero. I tried to kill myself the other day, but AG's screaming was too loud I couldn't focus. He's one spoilt brat, thanks to Atuk and Nenek.

Tya? Well,she's not much of a help either. She gets on my nerve every single time she opens her mouth. She's 15 now and she thinks she's big enough to do as she please. She shouts all the time and kept saying that the world is unfair. Y know that phase? Guess what lil sis,been there and done that. She dropped the f-bomb a couple of times too. I swear I almost slapped her the other day. Talk about the joy of being the big sis.

*Sigh*

I am missing those familiar faces too.