January 16, 2010

The 2 a.m. Playlist

1) Adele- Crazy For You
2) Kate Walsh-Your Song
3) Seven Collar T Shirt- Faith
4) Rivermaya- You'll Be Safe Here
5) Fynn Jamal- Over
6) Rachael Yamagata- I Wish You Love
7) Paul Tiernan- How To Say Goodbye


Well,I guess it sums up my emotions at the moment.
I'm off to bed.
and I'm NOT thinking of you.

January 15, 2010

Wildan.

p/s: awak,semalam kan saya mimpi awak. yang peliknya,awak sikit pun tak marah saya. kita keluar jalan-jalan. bertiga,macam biasa. awak pakai baju warna biru,sama dengan lis. awak dgn dia pura-pura macam tak ada apa apa pernah berlaku. macam semuanya seperti biasa je. awak,bagitau saya apa yg saya patut buat. saya tak suka buat awak & lis macam ni. saya mintak maaf wahai wildan kesayangan. dan shadjihar,saya rasa saya rindu awak sangat.

January 5, 2010

Reckless.

Seven years from now i'll find myself saying,
"I was young and stupid."


young and stupid,indeed.

Fed Up.

fed up lah.
fed up nak bangun pagi-pagi pergi class poetry.
fedd up nak gosok baju siap dgn matching tudung.
fed up memikir pasal benda yg takde solution.
fed up lah dgn assignments yg berlambak.
fed up,tahu tak?
aihh,perut pulak asyik sakit je.
malas nak dilayankan.
ubat dah berkepuk dlm locker tu.
fed up betul lah.

January 2, 2010

2010 Resolutions!


1) Rambut pendek,no more.
2) Read more books! (educational one,that is)
3) Cuba cukupkan yg lima waktu tu. (err)
4) Cut down on the caffeine.
5) Smile to everyone (termasuk strangers)
6) Lose some weights lah!
7) No bad mouthing lecturers.
8) Find a decent guy. (artsy,sudah pasti)
9) Jangan cakap laju sangat.
10) Be mature in every way possible.

The Farewell.

2009,what a year.
I've done and said many many things,
good ones or even bad bad ones.
I've had my ups & downs.
I've been hurt & I too, have hurt.
I've loved & been loved.
I regretted too many things,
that sometimes I wish to turn back time.
Some things will never be the same again,
even if I tried hard. I am sorry.
So long,2009.

p/s: this is a little apology note to Noor Shadjihar Mohd Jasmani &
Liswatul Hidayah Che Long.I am truly sorry.
I know that it will never be the same again,and I'm sorry.
God knows how miserable I am without the two of you.
I'll always love you and I am indeed very sorry.

Electric.

26122009.
Deep in this crowd,all I could ever think was you.
Seven Collar T Shirt's Faith hit me the most.
I dreamt what it would be like if you're here with me.
If you are the one sheltering me from the rain.
If you are the one playfully tapping my shoulder.
If you are the one who told me I looked beautiful.
If you are the one holding my hand,instead of someone else.
I tried to have fun. I jumped, I sang along, I danced my heart out,
but I just couldn't.
The crowd went wild,and all I did was stand there solemnly.
Doing nothing,singing nothing.Not even a single hum.
I got lost between 24 999 others,
deeply lost in the shadow of the night,
when actually I got lost long inside my own feelings.
I just couldn't.
You had disturbed the balance of my mind,
and I don't like it.I don't like it at all.